WTF, We never win

Well, what is new? My son has gain 1 pound and 2 inches in a month which is good, but now they have him on a asthma pump, and he's allergic to milk and eggs. wow, milk and eggs, if it ain't one it's the other. We never f*king win. They have him on skin ointment for his eczema, asthma meds for his breathing, and now he's allergic to random crap. They tell me he's under weight, but they keep taking food away. I'm so tired of going to the hospital. He's a happy baby/toddler. So why are they causing problems, and if one more doctor asks me what happens if i give him eggs, i'm gonna spaz. I don't know what happens cause i never gave him eggs. Stupid a** doctors. uggggggggggg, WTF is all i have to say

How to feel

I don't know how to feel about a lady that gave birth to me. But didn't raise me. She's in the hospital. And I went to visit her today. And I told them(doctors and nurse) that I'm her oldest daughter. Should I have said that. Since I was adopted by someone else. And the doctor told me that this woman, the women who gave me life had a stroke, and is bleeding in the brain. I'm scared. What should I do, what should I say. She has 3 other kids at home who need her. I can't step in and take these kids. I just got my own place, and my husband and I have only been married going on 2 years. I don't know how to raise teenagers. And I won't be able to say anything cause I'm not their mother. I was barely in their lives. And a 8 yr old. How do you explain to her that her mom can never walk again, work again, do anything normal again. I'm scared for these kids, they shouldn't lose their mother. Even if she wasn't a mother to me. My mom told me to see her or I'll regret it and I'm glad I went.

Wife

What is the fukking point of a wife? seriously, cause there are men out there that have never been taught to cook & clean and they automatically think when they get married that's the wife's job. It's not our jobs to teach ya what your mothers forgot to teach ya. How are we suppose to raise you and your kids? And the funny part is that you sit there talking about ya not kids. To treat ya like adults. Then fukking act it. Get up and do something on your own. Don't wait till we get mad and tell ya something b4 doing it.

Men

How is it that men think their wifes become their new mother. Talking about, we're suppose to cook for them, clean for them, clean their clothes, iron their clothes, hang up their things, watch the children so they can have tv/pc/game time. It's like grow the hell up. Ya grown a$$ men. Ya should be able to do for ya selves. Why we gotta be ya wife and mother. If we are also being your mothers, then you should be able to get your a$$ kick. Like a mother would do. Cause it's not fair ya want all this shyt and give nothing in return. Ya a bunch of lazy a$$es that need to get the fuKK up and do something on ya own. Why we gotta tell ya what to do. And the funny part is ya get mad. Then do it on ya own and we won't have to tell you to do it. And then don't do a half a$$ job, cause
ya know we're gonna complain.

So what is new?

Well, Oct of 2005 i got pregnant, and in 2006 i got married and had my son. In 2007 my grandma passed, and how it's 2008. It's a new year and a new me. In Nov 2007, we got our apt. We are happy. We have our own place in the Bx far away from everyone. I'm tired of having so much family around. In my face. It's quiet and my son has freedom to run and jump. He's growing big and fast. He's gonna be 2 this summer, and he's already a troblem maker. And that is all for me. I'll be back with more.

2007 done and over with already, thank goodness

Well, let start out buy saying that 2007 sucked so much. And I'm glad that it is over already.

I started 2007 in the hospital. My son had ended up with R.S.V. which sucked cause i spent 5 days in the hospital with him cause my husband had to work. I was living with my mother in law and brother in law, and that was no fun. Most of the first 6 months i really can't remember, it's probably from boredom and stress. My son hasn't gain weight the whole year he's been 18 lbs from when he was 6 months till now. He's 17 months. Now he's 19 lbs which is good. In July my husband and i threw a party at a rented hall for our son. Invited about 80 ppl and only about 25-30 ppl showed up. We wasted so much money. And it's never gonna happen again. Whoever went to the party are gonna be the only ones invited to anything else we do. Cause it's really messed up that ppl didn't show or at least called to explain why they didn't.

we lost our grandmother in March, and it's just crazy. How can someone be fine one day and not here the next. It makes no sense. I kissed her goodbye the night before. The next morning i took my son to the park, not knowing. Then i get a call. It was so hard. Cause i had to tell my mom that her mother had passed. I've been crying since. I don't know how to stop. We miss her so much.

In Nov. we got an apt which is great. so glad to be out of there. I was going crazy. And after that my husband lose some money, which sucked. But oh well. So glad that there is a new year coming I'm so tired of 2007. 2007 the year of stress and depression.

But 2008 is a better year. I will make it a better year. 2007 done and over with already.

-Messy

Some women make me so mad.

They are so many women I know doing the dumbest. And there are so many men who make me want to hurt them. The women I know have the dumbest husbands. These husbands walk around like their gods gift to women. These women need to see them for who they really are, nothing but a bunch of a-holes. Cause they are always getting hurt. And there is nothing I can do to help. I don't like to hear them cry and complain. I want them to be happy. And there are going to be some people I know who might read this and get up set. And I'm sorry. I just want you to know I love ya.

Soon to be mother in laws.

My sweetie's mom is driving me up the wall. Doing the oddest things. Like kissing chairs, mopping the wall, and a hold bunch of other stuff. This lady creeps me out. I can't wait till we get married and he moves out. She thinks that he's 14 again and she can control him. She started trying to control me. Yea ok, like I listen to anything she says. She makes me so mad. We can't watch TV, cause she sits in the living talk so loud on the phone. I just don't like her. My kids will not be hanging out in her house.

Why in the world do women have children?

I took my little sister to the park today and this lady shows up with her son. The lady was on the phone the whole time she was there. Her son was just walking around until he saw my little sister. He started following her. Then he had mucus coming out of this nose. All he did was wiping it across his face. He kept putting his fingers in his nose and wiping it everywhere. Then he was trying to touch my little sister. My little sister started ignoring me. So I wanted to take her upstairs. I started to pick her up to put her in the carriage and this little boy started screaming like I grabbed him. His mother still on the phone, ran to see and by time she got to us, he ran the other way. And she looking at me like I did something wrong. Some women should like get a license to have children.

My world

My name is Messy. And this is my world. I'm female, 24, and live here in Manhattan. I made this blog to let out some stress, boredom, just to see what it would be like. Well this is my first blog and I really didn't have any to write. I went to check out this program to help me get an apartment. They where closed down. I try to apply for a job, but all they wanted was a resume. So I'll keep trying. It's hard out in this world.