How to feel

I don't know how to feel about a lady that gave birth to me. But didn't raise me. She's in the hospital. And I went to visit her today. And I told them(doctors and nurse) that I'm her oldest daughter. Should I have said that. Since I was adopted by someone else. And the doctor told me that this woman, the women who gave me life had a stroke, and is bleeding in the brain. I'm scared. What should I do, what should I say. She has 3 other kids at home who need her. I can't step in and take these kids. I just got my own place, and my husband and I have only been married going on 2 years. I don't know how to raise teenagers. And I won't be able to say anything cause I'm not their mother. I was barely in their lives. And a 8 yr old. How do you explain to her that her mom can never walk again, work again, do anything normal again. I'm scared for these kids, they shouldn't lose their mother. Even if she wasn't a mother to me. My mom told me to see her or I'll regret it and I'm glad I went.

Wife

What is the fukking point of a wife? seriously, cause there are men out there that have never been taught to cook & clean and they automatically think when they get married that's the wife's job. It's not our jobs to teach ya what your mothers forgot to teach ya. How are we suppose to raise you and your kids? And the funny part is that you sit there talking about ya not kids. To treat ya like adults. Then fukking act it. Get up and do something on your own. Don't wait till we get mad and tell ya something b4 doing it.

Men

How is it that men think their wifes become their new mother. Talking about, we're suppose to cook for them, clean for them, clean their clothes, iron their clothes, hang up their things, watch the children so they can have tv/pc/game time. It's like grow the hell up. Ya grown a$$ men. Ya should be able to do for ya selves. Why we gotta be ya wife and mother. If we are also being your mothers, then you should be able to get your a$$ kick. Like a mother would do. Cause it's not fair ya want all this shyt and give nothing in return. Ya a bunch of lazy a$$es that need to get the fuKK up and do something on ya own. Why we gotta tell ya what to do. And the funny part is ya get mad. Then do it on ya own and we won't have to tell you to do it. And then don't do a half a$$ job, cause
ya know we're gonna complain.

So what is new?

Well, Oct of 2005 i got pregnant, and in 2006 i got married and had my son. In 2007 my grandma passed, and how it's 2008. It's a new year and a new me. In Nov 2007, we got our apt. We are happy. We have our own place in the Bx far away from everyone. I'm tired of having so much family around. In my face. It's quiet and my son has freedom to run and jump. He's growing big and fast. He's gonna be 2 this summer, and he's already a troblem maker. And that is all for me. I'll be back with more.